I am tired...

It wasn't mean that I didn't enjoy my life or
something like that it's just somehow I am tired...

I might smile, (yes, tiredly smile)
to people that are celebrating their happiness.
full of friends and love.

and me? I just realize something.
Brandon said I am important to him but he seems don't care about me.
I still haven't trust my sister
I lost the role of big brother in the house

haha~ now I am laughing at my self,
really is that what you think about all of this?

he might not be care but he said i am important to him
my sister sometimes annoying but we love her :)
well my big brother is an xx so i don't really care, since all his care about is his gf
so i am fine :)

what have I done wrong?

I'm grateful of everything that happened to me

                           When bad things happened to me I always think that bad things is always happened to me and I continuously thinking that my self is the victim of all these things. 

              

Which is I realizeed that is wrong thing to do. 

I can mad I can disappointed as much as I want, I can cried but I can't run. I can hurt my self but I can't avoid it.

                but those feelings are temporary. it won't last long. 

             bad things won't make your day become bad day right? there's going to be someone who save your day by making u smile and laugh. 

what I want to say in here is, accept the reality, you can't run or even hide from it. You just can change it from yourself, not other things outside you.

and someday you'll see how grateful you are that that things happened to you. those bad things build you and make u a better person, it's make u stronger and learn it not to make the same mistake as you did before.

honestly this things always happened to me. and thanks to God he makes me more successful than before.

It makes me learn that behind bad lucks it's always have good lucks behind of it :)

enjoy your day keep smiling and keep grateful okay :3