I am tired...

It wasn't mean that I didn't enjoy my life or
something like that it's just somehow I am tired...

I might smile, (yes, tiredly smile)
to people that are celebrating their happiness.
full of friends and love.

and me? I just realize something.
Brandon said I am important to him but he seems don't care about me.
I still haven't trust my sister
I lost the role of big brother in the house

haha~ now I am laughing at my self,
really is that what you think about all of this?

he might not be care but he said i am important to him
my sister sometimes annoying but we love her :)
well my big brother is an xx so i don't really care, since all his care about is his gf
so i am fine :)

what have I done wrong?

-curled on couch-

Why people are not sensitive enough to other's feelings?
It such a selfish thing to do! I want to mad but I can't.. I want to yell but it's useless.. I am dying because there's nothing I can do :( REALIZE IT PLEASE! even I can't love you it hurts to see you get sick and pretends you were fine! I'm moving on but if you do this to me I can't! I can accept you are more close to him than me.. I just need you to rest.. And be fine

before you love just let it go first

you know what broken hearted feels?
so painful right?

but after that you will felt there's a feeling that you want to let it go
your happiness want your sorrow gone but your sorrow want to stay...

i warn you before you start your new love story..
clean your mind first..

painful is it? but stay straight, i'll gave you some tips

STOP STARING AT HER / HIS PHOTO

by looking at his or her photo, you make your self remember her / his. just stop staring..
even how hard it is, how difficult it is... just accept it

TIME IS YOUR FRIEND

time is your friend, time will help you forget him / her by and by... and when you realize
you will felt so empty but just hold on

NEVER EVER CHANGE YOUR MIND

if you broken up with him, and you think this is the best way to deal it..
so just do it, never regretted what you did...
it will shows that you are strong and yo deserve better


i think that's enough for now..
see you later ^^