Halloween!

So this is my first halloween ever! and guess what? I love it :)
I mean who don't? carving pumpkins, wearing costumes and also get free candy!
I love it  :3

anyway so after I got home, I start to run to nana's room and help her decorate my dress and it's so pretty~ I love it soo much :) It makes me look like a bride nana laugh suddenly :)
haha so there we go, after like done some stiches
I tried get my self to carved 2 pumpkins for me and Thea.
I made a cat sittin on the roof and also a old style Harry Potter Jack'o Lantern

then trying my outfit which is really awesome, I was thinking to be a kuntilanak
but instead of kuntilanak I became a bride from hell :3
it's just to cute :D

so yea we start trick or treatin at 6pm ish I guess and ends around 9 ish~
oh my god~ from 2 - 3 hours I got a lot of candy.. and I kinda donate some for
the Macy's parade donation that Thea have. And I got that huge jar added with
Amanda Gaines' candies gave me that morning and I am soo happy :)

so yes! i love it, anyway there's a text message from Brandon :)


Me : "I am a dead bride who rose after being abused by her fiance."
Brandon : "Coolness"
Me : ":3 gonna posted my picture later."
Brandon : "OK lol"
Me : "Mwe mwe, I am searching for my groom"
Brandon : "right here"

-smiles- love is always in the air huh? it's just me who didn't notice it :)

sunday post!!

Today is sunday and i love it soo much...

I participate in the church today as it's a world communion as I'm the altar girl and I'm holding the bread.
Instead of saying "The body of Jesus Christ broken for you" I said it in bahasa so "Inilah Tubuh Yesus Kristus yang dipersembahkan untumu" which is a bit crazy I suppose. Since it's ummm~ a methodist church.
so anyway today also my mom's birthday, I dk what to gave her but I'm preparing a song for her.
I'm planning to play it infront of her but my pinkie finger's muscle just have a cramps and I hate it
and i'm trying to finish the chord anyway

and we eat in the Olive garden, as we went to shoes and bags shop :3 *yay* and I try some boots! which is i never thought to wear it but it's awesome :3 knee length is sooo cute! I have to have one :3
anyway I have Venetian Chicken Apricot today and it's awesome, the apricot sauce, Asparagus, broccoli, tomatoes and also the grilled chicken is awesome!!! OMG OMG and the leftover red velvet cheesecake is so suitable with it :3
anyway yesterday we went to Rhode Island to shop at Providence Place which is like Indonesia's PP :D and I love it, geee I buy thea's chrismast present there and I got 6 cool clothes for fall and winter~ :3
it's pretty and I'm dying to buy summer dresses but I can't ;(
anyway that day I start to fall in love in boots :D

haha nevermind I got some cool stuffs and i eat crispy artichoke heart, something like springrolls :3 *OMG I HAVE TO COOK SPRINGROLLS FOR THEM!!!*
and also something like pizza :3

so far I love Massachusetts and I don't wanna leave yet, it's just
will it be the same if I decided to visit them?
I want visit them, with him maybe :) and I'll introduce him to them :)

call me "love me" :)

Love me is actually a song that Yiruma composed 2001 in his album First Love

I missed this song so bad :)
It seems I could see my self and my journey in that song.
It's so soothing, It makes me feels like I don't have to worry about tomorrow and just walk
the path will lead you...

I always cry listening to this one, seeing the sky on Medway sometimes remind me of this song.
Bright blue sky with lots hope and things overwhelmed in my mind.
I'm in love with Massachusetts' sky and also the pretty trees that start to changed as fall coming.

belle.. belle mon journee..

Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things 
that escape those who dream only at night.
-Edgar Allen Poe 

good night, bonne nuit mon ami :)

 

being mature understand more in love

i know this is could not in my rules, 1 day = 2 stories
   but who cares :)


mature in love ,, diffrent things from mature...
         okay , I learn this from my friend's sister...

have you ever felt that sometimes you get spoilt by your bf?
      i know it feels that you got his spot light

but do you ever think, ever care about his life?
         i mean he must be have another thing that he should do, his life isn't just about you

            now listen to me, doesn't it feels better if you could make  him happier?
more comfy with you? listen what do you want more?
the main point of relationship is how you be the one for him...

how you make him more comfy with you than oter people does..

start with giving attention, starts talking what he loves,
               not to spoil to him.. really take care him well..
make him special, i believe, i do believe...

he'll change, he loves you more...
              keep being you and keep him happy..
if you got a problem , solve it slowly... think which choice is better for both of you...

:) jesus bless you

there's always a time for everything...

: listen to this.

I was adopting this from my life

    someone I love and I really care about told me like this
     " ..it is not the perfect time ...
                   when the perfect time is come you'll find the perfect one."

    and this
    " when the perfect one come
          don't let him / her go ... try your best to get him / her "

 the last...
   " don't try to hold someone you get too tight...
          but treat him / her like a gift "

* really, if you are being me, you'll felt this emptiness fills in to your heart
    so missed him now *

in my word, those sentence are very powerful . this guy want to open my eyes
(which I realized it now)
that there always a time . a time for everything , your mate, your dream , your happiness and love.


    but believe me, the most important is your effort to wait and your effort to keep it.
in this thing i admit, this word is precious, and I know sometimes I am very impatience..

but, be patient and treat it like a gift. It is a beautiful gift for each of us,
    take it with care in our life..

NB:

    thanks for you who impress me in every way,
              you open my eyes to something that I always afraid of...
   and now I believing it now :]
            always be yours ^^

before you love just let it go first

you know what broken hearted feels?
so painful right?

but after that you will felt there's a feeling that you want to let it go
your happiness want your sorrow gone but your sorrow want to stay...

i warn you before you start your new love story..
clean your mind first..

painful is it? but stay straight, i'll gave you some tips

STOP STARING AT HER / HIS PHOTO

by looking at his or her photo, you make your self remember her / his. just stop staring..
even how hard it is, how difficult it is... just accept it

TIME IS YOUR FRIEND

time is your friend, time will help you forget him / her by and by... and when you realize
you will felt so empty but just hold on

NEVER EVER CHANGE YOUR MIND

if you broken up with him, and you think this is the best way to deal it..
so just do it, never regretted what you did...
it will shows that you are strong and yo deserve better


i think that's enough for now..
see you later ^^

first love story

love is so beautiful rite?

so beautiful even it can make you cry, and laugh in the same time
it can make you awake when you sleep,
it touches your heart
sometimes true love really moved you so much
to do something outside beyond

love begins from affective
when you feel so comfy with them you won't let it just go and slipped from you hands
but when you hold it too tights, it will go from you
like when you holding sands tightly it will slip off through spaces between your fingers...

when you had love in your hands.
please, appreciate it, you're lucky to have it in yours...
when you can't keep a faith in him/ her remember the last time he/ she said love to you
make a beautiful memory with him / her...
even they just come over to your heart, they'll make a beatiful craft on your heart
it will be there, forever,

but you'll know the last love of your life
will be the best you ever had :))