-curled on couch-

Why people are not sensitive enough to other's feelings?
It such a selfish thing to do! I want to mad but I can't.. I want to yell but it's useless.. I am dying because there's nothing I can do :( REALIZE IT PLEASE! even I can't love you it hurts to see you get sick and pretends you were fine! I'm moving on but if you do this to me I can't! I can accept you are more close to him than me.. I just need you to rest.. And be fine

sunday post!!

Today is sunday and i love it soo much...

I participate in the church today as it's a world communion as I'm the altar girl and I'm holding the bread.
Instead of saying "The body of Jesus Christ broken for you" I said it in bahasa so "Inilah Tubuh Yesus Kristus yang dipersembahkan untumu" which is a bit crazy I suppose. Since it's ummm~ a methodist church.
so anyway today also my mom's birthday, I dk what to gave her but I'm preparing a song for her.
I'm planning to play it infront of her but my pinkie finger's muscle just have a cramps and I hate it
and i'm trying to finish the chord anyway

and we eat in the Olive garden, as we went to shoes and bags shop :3 *yay* and I try some boots! which is i never thought to wear it but it's awesome :3 knee length is sooo cute! I have to have one :3
anyway I have Venetian Chicken Apricot today and it's awesome, the apricot sauce, Asparagus, broccoli, tomatoes and also the grilled chicken is awesome!!! OMG OMG and the leftover red velvet cheesecake is so suitable with it :3
anyway yesterday we went to Rhode Island to shop at Providence Place which is like Indonesia's PP :D and I love it, geee I buy thea's chrismast present there and I got 6 cool clothes for fall and winter~ :3
it's pretty and I'm dying to buy summer dresses but I can't ;(
anyway that day I start to fall in love in boots :D

haha nevermind I got some cool stuffs and i eat crispy artichoke heart, something like springrolls :3 *OMG I HAVE TO COOK SPRINGROLLS FOR THEM!!!*
and also something like pizza :3

so far I love Massachusetts and I don't wanna leave yet, it's just
will it be the same if I decided to visit them?
I want visit them, with him maybe :) and I'll introduce him to them :)

mature or not mature it's in you...

      " being old is never a choice

                              but being mature is a choice "

mature , a level , a situation when we could react as our age...

                   the opposite ? childish of course ...

childish : a pattern of thinking " I'm still a kid, i could do what ever i want ! "
                            which is unappropriate for their age .

being mature is never too late. being mature = being more wiser

  * sorry if my degree of comparison is bad ^^a *

                                            being wise is not only by giving wishdom to every one,

          writing wise story or just nagging to ur friends when they got something wrong.

        but being wise is how you apply ur own wisdom to your life and act appropriately

        as your age. Don't  forget to keep feeling grateful for everything we had.

why people want to be mature ?

 ~ they realize their time is priceless. and what they do is useless. in the end,

                                 they want to fix all their mistakes and being mature.

or

~ they had enough fun in their child and they want to move to be a diffrent person...

that's all about maturity ;)
                                                         God bless you guys :)

from crap to hero and maybe zero

lot of people are just a big crap...
i got a friend like that...


every time i heard he says a crap ...
really wanna wake him up
and says,
  " you think that ease?
   try to do something under pressure like i do "

but seriously guys...

those crap maker actually want to get attention by their close friend
they just want to be considered as a " hero " not " zero "
 isn't that all we want too? consider as a  hero...
     but sometimes our environment isn't as soft as we think...

life is harsh, we should fight for our self, sometimes people mock you,
your friends stab you from ur back
keep look straight...

keep smiling, and keep doing good thing.. you  might be not a hero for them
but you are a hero for yourself...
you are a surviver in this harsh world :)

GBu :]

being extrovert is never wrong

rite now i'm in bandung :)
seriously, i'm not having a holiday, i 'm here for bringing my school's name for OSN

but one thing i learn today, i like seeing new people.
like this chapter, now i'm being extrovert.. i 'm trying to meeting new people...
i'm opening my heart and my self to be who i am...

it never wrong to be open up...
but listen, it never wrong.. being your self is just who you are...

doesn't matter if they just accept it or not... it just you
^^

God bless ^^