-curled on couch-

Why people are not sensitive enough to other's feelings?
It such a selfish thing to do! I want to mad but I can't.. I want to yell but it's useless.. I am dying because there's nothing I can do :( REALIZE IT PLEASE! even I can't love you it hurts to see you get sick and pretends you were fine! I'm moving on but if you do this to me I can't! I can accept you are more close to him than me.. I just need you to rest.. And be fine

the forgotten one

I know I haven't talk much at this blog. It doesn't mean I forget about this, it's just getting busy.
Things working well here, I haven't cried and missing my home, yet...
but gee I dk when I saw the YBA Karawang's blog I feels like I'm home, and I want to come to their activity and I just realize, " Oh wait! I'm in USA not in Indonesia how do I manage to get there?" and yes, I'm laughing on myself :)

Anyway, my best friend had her sweet seventeen at September 26, so it's recently and I've called her said I love her as my best friend and I do missed her :) she loves my gift to her, and I'm really glad tho she likes it. Then I call Rafael. I miss him so much :) Seeing him feels like a year ago and I like how he made me laugh :)

anyway I think I've entering my curve long time ago and I just realize it :)
see how fake smiles and fake laugh helps you? :)
sometimes you need time for yourself, I'm lucky that I'm working at library where the books are everywhere
surrounds me and I'm not lonely...

And if I do~ I'm craving attention to pets in here, I often hugs Pixie more than everyone does that time. But I still hold on not to cry~ :) I think I need rest, since I need it, and I think I should download some of Yiruma's song. It's soothing~ I feel brave and calm as he speaks through his melody. I want to learn his song...
I know I need to walk outside now :) I'd like to do that after shower maybe :)



another song from yiruma that I just fall for :)
Yiruma - Time Forgets
Yiruma - The View From My Window
Yiruma - Beloved
Yiruma - Sunny Rain
Yiruma - One Day Diary
Yiruma - Dream
Yiruma - Lord.. Hold My Hand
Yiruma - Love Hurts
Yiruma - Tears On Love
Yiruma - Poem

Even you missing someone deeply, keep there, You'll survive.

complaining about the crap

talking on both past theme in this life lesson is about maturity rite?

 well one thing that show you still childish is complaining ...

i know i know you all must be disagree, complain is one way to blame other things outside us to make us feel better.. but actually it's so right as it so wrong..

have you heard that every action we take it is how we choose the action ?

yeah think about it now...
              what happened to you right now, isn't because other people or things are mean to you
it what have you choose before ...

if choose wisely then it's all good thing will happened to you,
               if you're not, well if you too sloppy to pick it, well not a good thing will happened to you

but , seriously ...
    no one deserve to be blame by your choice...

think about it, and keep feeling grateful for what have you choose before :)
jesus bless all of us :)

mature or not mature it's in you...

      " being old is never a choice

                              but being mature is a choice "

mature , a level , a situation when we could react as our age...

                   the opposite ? childish of course ...

childish : a pattern of thinking " I'm still a kid, i could do what ever i want ! "
                            which is unappropriate for their age .

being mature is never too late. being mature = being more wiser

  * sorry if my degree of comparison is bad ^^a *

                                            being wise is not only by giving wishdom to every one,

          writing wise story or just nagging to ur friends when they got something wrong.

        but being wise is how you apply ur own wisdom to your life and act appropriately

        as your age. Don't  forget to keep feeling grateful for everything we had.

why people want to be mature ?

 ~ they realize their time is priceless. and what they do is useless. in the end,

                                 they want to fix all their mistakes and being mature.

or

~ they had enough fun in their child and they want to move to be a diffrent person...

that's all about maturity ;)
                                                         God bless you guys :)

from crap to hero and maybe zero

lot of people are just a big crap...
i got a friend like that...


every time i heard he says a crap ...
really wanna wake him up
and says,
  " you think that ease?
   try to do something under pressure like i do "

but seriously guys...

those crap maker actually want to get attention by their close friend
they just want to be considered as a " hero " not " zero "
 isn't that all we want too? consider as a  hero...
     but sometimes our environment isn't as soft as we think...

life is harsh, we should fight for our self, sometimes people mock you,
your friends stab you from ur back
keep look straight...

keep smiling, and keep doing good thing.. you  might be not a hero for them
but you are a hero for yourself...
you are a surviver in this harsh world :)

GBu :]

being extrovert is never wrong

rite now i'm in bandung :)
seriously, i'm not having a holiday, i 'm here for bringing my school's name for OSN

but one thing i learn today, i like seeing new people.
like this chapter, now i'm being extrovert.. i 'm trying to meeting new people...
i'm opening my heart and my self to be who i am...

it never wrong to be open up...
but listen, it never wrong.. being your self is just who you are...

doesn't matter if they just accept it or not... it just you
^^

God bless ^^